How do I feel???

Over the past few days I have been asked al lot about how I feel... And I pondered the response a bit more yesterday.

In he short term, I have all of these crappy sensations and bits of pain and ather stuff to deal with, so I can rightly say I feel like cr@p.

But, that is not the whole picture.. Overall, I feel a whole lot better! I actually was able to bend over and pick up my keys yesterday without the whole "f@t @rsed b@stard bending of knees and supportive arms in use sort of pickup". It hurt lots as I forgot about the localised pain I still have in the upper abdomen, but it was good to be able to do something I have not been able to do for many a year!

I guess it would be easy to slip into the malaise of "why me" with the post surgical difficulties, however, I cannot deny the overall feeling of iprovement I have had. That feeling tends to over ride the short term issues. In fact, I have almost forgotten the post surgical dramas between "operation one" and "operation two".

The odd expletive still is heard popping out when I do something that is physically too early.

On another tangent, I have to say that dinner last night was WONDERFUL!!

Apart from seeing some dear friends and talking about lots of stuff, reminising etc, we had a dinner of an assortment of Indian food and well lubricated (by the juices of the curries) rice. I cannot tell you how much I have craved the spices and flavours of a couple of different curries at one time. I even was given a smaller bowl to eat out of (at my request) to make sure I did not load it too much, and I had about a cup and a half of food over the meal time. The best thing was being able to stop there. In the past it would have been 4-6 times that amount.

This weekend will be interesting as close friends of ours are having a joint birthday/anniversery luncheon to celebrate with some friends... Yup, the 3 course meal thing is on the go.. I want to go, but have ordered an entree to be had as the main.. and at this time no dessert (but that may change depending on what it is!!)

You don't tend to realise how food is tied into celebrations and happy occasions until you are forced to focus on it. I have come to the realisation over the years that alcohol and a good time are not a mandatory coupling. I just have to get used to the fact that a little food, and a good time are not a similar sort of coupling!!!

So how do I really feel?? About a six out of ten in the short term, but immeasurably good overall and over time!!!

Onwards!!!






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